Not At All Unexpected

I decided tonight to take a pregnancy test--my first in a few months.  I'm on CD 32, so I figured if there was a sliver of a chance, I could get a positive tonight.  Unfortunately, it was negative.  So, it looks like I will be starting Provera this weekend and then on to Clomid.

I hope this is it.  PLEASE let this be it.

Do.Not.Scratch!

Ugh.  I want to crawl out of my own skin right now.  I have eczema completely taking over the backs of my legs and more bug bites than I can count.  I woke up several times in the night, scratching like crazy.  Unfortunately, scratching my 'owies' just makes them itch more and (some of it) spread.  I have two different creams that I apply like a mad woman and will get another tomorrow.  *sigh*  One of the joys of summer.

On the TTC front, I'm still waiting for AF or waiting to take Provera.  I'm hoping for the former to show up sooner than later.

Doctor's Appointment

I had my annual exam with my OBGYN this afternoon.  I told her that we had taken a break for the past two months, and she was fine with that.  She understood the stress and disappointment that we have been through.  I told her that we were ready to start trying to get pregnant again as soon as this cycle ends.  She was supportive of that decision and said that she is willing to go as far as we'd like.  She said that they will do up to IUI's in their office.  I don't think that we will go that far, but it is good to know that it is available.  She also suggested that I may want to have an HSG done.  (They would shoot dye into my uterus and fallopian tubes and then watch it on an x-ray).

We will for sure be starting Clomid again next cycle.  I will start over at 50 mgs, which is a relief.  I filled my Rx a couple of months ago, but never took it.  She had me taking 150 mgs at that point, so I already have what I need.

I'll be getting a second opinion on July 6th.  I feel pretty good about my appointment today, but I would still like to hear from another doctor what I should do.

Not related to my reproductive tract, she gave me a Rx for my eczema.  (YAY!)  She also suspects that I may have rheumatoid arthritis.  I will be making an appointment for blood tests to determine if RA is the case.

I'm feeling excited about starting to TTC again.  I think the break has been good for me, however difficult it has been at times.

Long Time, No Post

It has been over a month since my last post, but I haven't had a whole lot to write about as far as trying for a baby is concerned.  I was able to get my period on my own last cycle, so that was a good thing.  Only time will tell on this cycle, since I'm hypothetically halfway through at this point.  We are at a crossroads as to what actions we should take.  I'm torn on seeking further infertility treatments or not.  I'm considering switching doctors to see if the new doctor can give me more answers.  I think that if what is wrong with my reproductive tract is an 'easy' fix, we'll pursue whatever it is to make it work correctly.  If it is more of a serious, ongoing issue, we'll probably stop fertility treatments.  We've agreed that we will continue to try for another baby, either aggressively or passively, for the next two years.  If we do not have a child of our own in that time, we will work toward adoption.  More than likely, we will pursue a foster to adopt situation, as traditional infant adoption is ridiculously expensive.  Of course, the entire thing will be an emotional roller coaster.  I know that, in the end, everything will work out the way it is supposed to, but the waiting and dreaming is killer.