Sixteen Months

Sixteen @#*$!@ months.  That's how long we've been trying for another baby.  How is it, then, that I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was negative?  Still!

I'm so pissed and upset.  I can't even put it into words.  Right now, I'm ready to quit.  I'm tired of charting, temping, obsessing, testing, having side effects all for--what?  NOTHING.  How is it that teenagers and other less fit (at least so it seems) people can pop them out like a machine gun?  Eff this.  Eff it all.

No News

I don't have any news to report.  I'm idling in the 2WW, still.  I don't plan on testing until at least the 19th, so 6 more days.  I still feel different than I have in previous cycles, so I'm hoping it's for a good reason.

So, not much to say, but I'm still here!

I Should Really Shut Up

...because I got solid cross hairs on my chart today, which means I ovulated.  We had awesome timing, so we'll see if anything comes of it.  I hope and pray that this is our cycle.  Friday marks 6 months since our miscarriage and April is 16 months of trying for another baby.  I'd love to be pregnant now so that I can get through my due date (May 12) a little easier.  We'll see.

Usually at this point, I have pregnancy symptoms.  Clomid is a lovely little thing and does that to me.  So far, I don't.  I'm hoping that is a good sign.

I found out two more people that I know are pregnant.  It gets harder and harder to hear with each one.  *sigh* I know it has nothing to do with me, but it still sucks that I can't join them in their bliss.

Frustrated

I'm getting frustrated with this cycle already...what's new?  LOL.  I normally ovulate (with the help of Clomid) on CD 13 or CD 14.  Today is CD 15 and it appears that I may be ovulating today.  That is, if my temperatures go up and stay up tomorrow and beyond.  I will be terribly disappointed if I do not ovulate.  I need at least a chance of getting pregnant this cycle!